In this deeply poignant and personal memoir, John Flint recounts the experience of his wife Patricia’s diagnosis with cancer, her death, and his efforts to readjust to life afterwards. John uses his own experiences to explore some of the wider issues about how society responds to terminal illness, death, and widowhood. But, in a book that is touching, warm, and wise, John focuses on some of the realities of each stage from caring for a terminally ill loved one to learning to live as a widower. In doing so, John provides an insight into the real emotions and experiences of a carer and widower. He provides thoughts on the practicalities of what to expect from experiences such as the first Christmas as a widower, going on holiday alone, and the well-meant comments of others; and, in a life where ‘the tears are only an eyelid away’, he provides ideas on how to deal with them.